AGAINST ALL ODDS: Sickle Cell Awareness

AGAINST ALL ODDS 💪🏽🩸

I am a vessel of positivity
A refined state of mind
This state of mine will not define me
A will to survive, I thrive against adversity
Advertently not letting this disease decease me.

This is me! A sickle-celled being
Believing in all the possibilities,
Not stressed or pressed by what the outcome might be
For mighty is he who breathes life into me
So this blood loss inside won’t take the win(d) out of me.

Because of this disease
I’ve learned to see life through the lens of multiple opportunities
Elevated beyond this mindset
Still not set on failing me.
So I rise above the limitations set by this mutation
To conquer every citation
Written in medical history that I will succumb to my DNA orientation.

Defiance Not Acceptance
Though different I’m transcendent.
Birthed into independence,
This life pendent is no reflection
Of the person who stands before you,
My blood may be crescent mooned
But I illuminate like I’m immune.
I’m going forth with a new light and added energy
This enemy of mine was the beginning but not the end of me.
Poet/Author: @enricosuave121

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Adulting

Majority of us always wanted to hurry & grow up, we yearned to do stuff on our own, we wanted the adult stuff because it all looked like gold looking in from the outside.

But do you remember that saying ?

Everything that glitters isn’t gold, well here I am having to be crucially honest with myself because I stopped being Donnelle a long time ago.

A long time ago when I had to become an ADULT long before I even understood what a young adult was.

Sometimes we get so caught up in the adult lifestyle , the trends, relationships etc

So caught up in wanting to build a life for ourselves that our parents didn’t provide for us & that’s ok ,but we get so deep , too deep that we don’t realize it has changed us.

We start to adapt new hobbies and interests and make our minds believe we really enjoy these things when all we did was adapt to the environment and accepted the one fun thing close enough to the lifestyle.

My question is .. do you really love the things you do for fun? Is it really what you want to do?

I had a crazy reality check , I realized some of the things I say i really love now aren’t what I really love , I’ve just got too caught up in being an adult I forgot how much fun life suppose to be outside of the fun stuff that’s trending.

Where’s your reality check?

Prisoner of my own mind ..

Lost in your thoughts , unsure of what you feel even when you’re caught up in the moment , the moment of whether or not you’re doing the right thing or choosing the right person or job or invitation.

It’s crazy we get lost within our minds, unsure of who we are at times , we walk around thinking we are one person when we are someone totally different.

Strange, that feeling like you don’t belong in this world, the subconscious asking are you sure you belong here ? Are you in the right place? Where are you? Who are you? What do you want?

People become your punching bag , maybe not literally or literally , don’t you get it? We are our own prisoners in our minds & we lash out to those around us. Bad timing they say ..

Is it really the timing or the lack of self awareness? The lack of acknowledging and taking accountability of our actions whether we meant it or not.

Will you remain a prisoner forever or is it time for you to break FREE?

Choose your path.

I heard myself…

No more hiding, throw those fears away, be your best self ! Be free, live,love & laugh.

Become more self aware each day, try to fix one problem at a time. Stop beating yourself up, be genuine and patient with yourself like you’ll be to others.

Give yourself everything first after God. Stop saying you’ll get through & robbing yourself of what you truly deserve.

I know we have this huge dream, this amazing dream of a grand home, family, successful business & just living the best life so we think.

When you’re praying and dreaming for all of the material luxury, can you pray for your heart to be purified and as rich as gold ?

Start now.

Say no to him, don’t give him your body whenever he wants. Does he deserve you? What exactly do you want? What are you doing?

The hardest truth of this all is sometimes we can’t answer any of these questions until we ask who are we really….

Do you really know yourself?

Would your loved ones truly accept you if you tell them your darkest secrets?

Be true , stop letting your flesh determine how you live your life.

Be in control of yourself spiritually & mentally , let the physical follow.

This is my message to you.

Signing off..

– Don

Reappearance

Hello there I have returned, I needed to get myself together mentally , spiritually and physically. I’m not ashamed to say I was in pieces and at my breaking point.

I was lost and empty , I’m back to being myself and it feels amazing. You know that feeling when you miss home and you make it home the relief and comfort that comes over you? Well that’s how it feels when you’ve been down for a while so lost within your physical body but you have no idea who you are & then you found yourself !

I never thought I’ll be healed enough and full of joy & peace , It’s funny how life works.

I’m back to shine light in this “SAFE PLACE”

I’m here to let you know it’s ok to not be ok. You are human ! Don’t let imperfect people tell you how imperfect you are , don’t you already know that ? Haven’t you accepted yourself for whom you are? Haven’t you acknowledged what needs to be worked on and have started your process ?

Even if you haven’t yet I hope here’s your sign to.

The more you heal the more you grow

It’s soon the holidays and the best gift you can get yourself is HEALING 🎅🎄

If you celebrate Christmas, I wish you the best and I’ll be back on that day to wish you a Merry Christmas 😌🎅

Change

I have made a decision that the world has nothing to offer me. Time and time again I’ve depended on mankind and one too many times I was let down.

Anytime I ask God to help me trust it always comes in the right time , this I need permanently in my life.

I’ve hurt so badly and hurt loved ones in the process, I’ve made mistakes like anyone but I’ve acknowledged them. I’ve came to peace that I know I’m not perfect neither am I trying to be.

I’ve agreed to stop blaming others no matter the circumstance because no one put my hands in the lion’s mouth but me.

Too many times we put ourselves in situations, we choose to give others power, we choose to say yes or no,’we choose to carry on a conversation or ignore , we always make a choice !

Here’s my journey, I’m no longer a child of the world , I am a child of God & him I will worship until my time is up on earth.

I’m finding peace , stability, love, joy, spiritual awakening, sight & A NEW LIFE 🙏🏽

Fighting

I was diagnosed about 5 going 6 years ago with Sickle Cell disease. A disease that usually isn’t taken seriously, my life has changed tremendously, I had to see things differently, I had to see people differently and I definitely had to be able to try to understand others who may come off insulting but it wasn’t intentional.

I struggle with remembering I’m not normal because I wasn’t borned with the disease , just anemia however having this new sudden change in your life is extremely hard.

The new problems arousing, you’re confused . You have so many issues now it’s just too much to be dealt with at once. I ran out of options, I have no idea when I go to the doctor how many issues to complain for unless I’m walking with enough cash for the 10s of test or examinations I’ll have to go through.

Every person with the disease will be affected extremely different. My body rejects medication and a lot of stuff , it also gets immune quickly as I still have a strong immune system for someone so ill.

I still don’t understand the crisis, I don’t understand the seizures, I don’t understand the depression nor anything. I’m lost and have to live with a stranger, hoping and praying not for the rest of my life.

Every month there’s something new , who knows knows. I get tired telling people how many issues come around monthly because I don’t want to seem like I’m seeking attention, pity nor exaggerating because trust that normal people are like that towards people like us.

Organs being damaged one by one and what can you do? You can’t say stop and it stops.

One too many times I want to give up , sometimes I actually give up. I prayed to die one too many times.

When life comes down on you outside of your illness you just feel so exhausted, so useless, empty , lost … it’s like ok I can’t handle my health , work issues, relationships, friendships,world chaos.

By the time I try to be strong enough for it all , I’m too exhausted to be jovial and social. Like do you know what it’s like planning something so fun in your head because that’s what the normal you would love to do but then when you make it there your body is too exhausted to even want to talk? Crazy right ?

But again , how do I explain this to someone NORMAL?

I am at a point where I don’t know who I am. I am still trying to figure out what exactly can I really enjoy being so sick.

I know one day my life can suddenly change and I can be in the hospital for days , weeks maybe months. I want to live now I have the chance but how?

Fighting is my answer but I wonder would it ever end with me alive ?

Can I be your friend?

Everyone needs someone.

As much as we hate to admit it , as much as we say we have ourselves and don’t need anyone.

Human beings were placed on earth for a reason , there’s a reason for the words family , friends , spouses ,We need one another.

We need to shop , we need to get around, we need to be updated on what’s happening around us , regardless we will always need each other.

We really need a girls or guys night out or just that one friend to eat junk and watch movies with. It’s great to feel good and enjoy your own company but sometimes we will love extra company, now won’t we?

Some of us are alone, some of us don’t have anyone we feel safe or comfortable enough to talk to but that’s because we chose that whether we want to admit it or not.

Can I walk with you? Can you come to my blog and read what you may need help with?

I hope these little vent blogs help you.

– Overcome every obstacle

Dear Men,

If my ladies are too afraid to tell you let me do the honors.

Now I’m not against men because we know not every man out there is like that however to those who the cap may fit, it’s a shame.

You see….

It’s a shame to see our women walking these streets in fear, having crazy anxiety to even attend a location where a certain number of men are , having to keep a defensive guard up even in places that should be “professional”

I mean some men will push business opportunities and make her super uncomfortable when she just got comfortable with the job, some men will become a customer just to push flirtatious behavior BUT when she says no or black list you , you call her delusional and rude.

Would you expect her to look pass your disrespect and take your money?

Is that what you get away with , with other women?

& that’s another thing to touch here , because a few females allowed you guys to do as you please with or to them doesn’t mean it’s ok to walk around and EXPECT EVERY woman to allow it.

It’s a shame !

Dear Men,

It’s a shame to see you get rude and offensive when you speak to a woman a certain way because she refuses to acknowledge your presence or she tells you she doesn’t appreciate the way you may have said it.

Where’s the respect for her boundaries?

It’s a shame ! When a woman sets standards and values herself , you say she’s anti – social but when you set standards for yourself if you do it’s suppose to be glorified?

Please understand these are only SOME of the reasons a woman has to act a certain way towards a man.

So many woman were raised in abuse, and you think not respecting their boundaries or personal space is the way?

You’ll expect to have a female partner one day or you’ll expect to raise your daughter but how? When you aren’t even doing the smallest thing ,respecting a woman’s wishes.

It’s a damn shame !

Dear Men,

I pray some of you protect our women because half of the males aren’t.

Understand why she’s defensive , look around you , stop playing blind in a world you know so well have little to no respect for most women.

Dear Men,

Do better !

Tiny voices

The mind speaks quietly and sometimes loudly. The silent voice of the mind is so loud it’s hard to not listen to.

Tiny voices whispering day in and day out , as the voices get closer and closer you try to ignore it , you try to block it out with music ,television or maybe even a jog.

That is until you become frustrated and listen, the voices are telling or asking you something, you’re the only one with the actual answer.

Face your trials head on that’s the only way you’ll truly overcome and get passed it.

The voices aren’t lies, they’re you’re truth, maybe a truth you may want to hide from or just don’t want to believe. Which ever one that is you should listen.

“The smallest things are the most important “ so a wise man once told me.

Fix what those tiny voices are telling you or what they’re asking. Open your eyes and be strong enough to control your own mind and actions.

Good luck .